Evening all. I will be naming and shaming - Utter Truth once again, sorry if i hurt anyones feelings but trust me everyone mentioned hurt my feelings alot more!
Its been one of those days so -
This post is going to be purely about a few things that annoyed me whilst i was in a relationship with Matt, and also after we broke up - shall sum up what the real Matthew Tilley was like :)
Okay starting with, during this so called break before me and matt got back together. Matt had told me he had been on a date with a girl but it didnt work out because he wasnt used to change, and then said she was annoyed with him because they didnt kiss - on a first date. This girl was - Charlotte, the girl that ruined everything and i shall continue :)
1. On the day of my 18th birthday party which i had been literally begging him to go to (we had got back together at this point-to give our relationship another go) his excuse not to come was because he didnt like my friends... i phoned him - taking time out of my party which i was enjoying with my friends - only to find out he had apparently been dragged to the pub by his friends. Again, his friends who i had invited to my party - it just didnt make sense. I put all the blame on matt obviously but i can probably say at least one person who definately put him up to it!
Ashley (Okay, now ashley isnt that bad - but i think i can honestly say it was like matt spent more time with ashley than he did with me & his son, and yes thats kinda wrong)
After being on the phone to matt, finding out what he was actually doing, i ran upstairs, annoyed, angry, upset about half hour away from my actual birthday - this night i shall never forget as i had and still have the best bunch of friends a girl could ever ask for.
2.Not bothering, with anything at all -
All i ever heard was 'sorry cant come round tonight need to do this' 'ive got college till late' 'im too tired'
Do you know what i felt like saying to that ?? Just bloody grow up!! Everyone gets tired, and guess what?? i look after your child 24/7 wheres my break? wheres my 'lunchhour' ? when do i ever get time to myself? Sorry, should i have just turned round to our little baby boy and said; sorry liam i cant look after you today because im too tired and need to do this! No!!
It was pretty much what he was saying, he had to see me to see his child so what did i do ?? Try to bring him back to reality!!
Okay this is where i have to be fair! Matt was a brill dad to liam (when he wanted to be) after us breaking up the first time and me telling him what he was actually doing wrong, think it hit home! So in our little break he did come round most days after college to see liam for an hour or so before his dad picked him up- hands up- completely fair there, not a bad word to say about his parenting since the night i hit him!
11th February 2011 - The night it really did change, i felt i was bringing liam up on my own, matt didnt do much and the nights he did stay round at mine all he did was sleep and didnt help me during the night with liam, if he did come round after college it literally was for an hour and he didnt do much then anyway! So i broke up with him, ONE OF THE BEST CHOICES AND DECISIONS OF MY LIFE.
Too many arguments happened to even write about! We had come to some sort of conclusion that matt would have him one day at the weekend and on a wednesday/thursday during the week.. Now during the start of this i used to stay with liam as i hadnt left liam on his own with matt -EVER- and as liams mum i had more than any right to be there plus i got to talk to dawn :)
After a few weeks, matt had him on his own and picked him up and dropped him back or i used to do the same some weekends. Making sure everything was packed, and me being paranoid me asked loads of questions making sure liam had eaten whatever he had to and (stupid this) whether he had done a poo or not, it was important to know that, strange but liam had had his normal routine with me and it was slowly changing!
Which then brings us to april/may time when even more arguments happened and things really did change! Only for the better :)
Until next time....
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