Hello there,
I have come to the conclusion that i am a bad friend. I don't do it on purpose, because honestly who WANTS to be a bad friend. It just sort of happens, and it isn't until afterwards i realise it could be me.. Oopsy!
I sometimes feel like i am not there for my friends when they really need me, but then on the other hand - how do i know when they need me ?? I don't talk to them everyday, we don't meet up all the time but i am sort of expected to know things. I could sit here for hours and sometimes blame them for not telling me things, or i will look on Facebook and not feel included in certain things - but whose fault is that... mine or theirs??
I can meet up with them maybe once every two months ??? How bad is that lol someone will bring up a topic or an event they went to and i'm just sat there nodding and smiling, in my head thinking why didn't i go to that or why wasn't i told that bit...
Friends are confusing sometimes, or are they even friends?? After having Liam my life changed so much i think i was just caught up in a very weird bubble, and i'm stuck in it!! That is the only way i can describe how my life is... My life froze at a particular moment in time and in my head i'm still there... everyone else has moved on and I've separated myself from everyone - things aren't the same and i'm not sure why.
I would love for me to be going out every weekend and meeting up with friends at least once a week - make new friends and get my life back... but there is always something holding me back, keeping me in this bubble and i'm scared if it pops ill just drop to the floor like a tonne of bricks!
I'm high up in my bubble, sometimes it's a happy bubble and sometimes its a lonely one... trying to juggle alot of things at the same time without blurting my whole life story is proving to be very difficult.
I do really try to make an effort, but im scared of everyones reactions - i think ive secluded myself for too long. I feel like i dont know who my friends are anymore, i know nothing about them - its just a group of people i happened to go to school with and meet up with every now and then. Do they feel the same way about me?? I have no idea..
Until next time....
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Twitter: Samgove_x
Email: samantha.angove@gmail.com
Saturday, 5 July 2014
Monday, 7 April 2014
The Future
Hello there,
April 2014! Its sorta been a busy year already but this is a quick post to say i havent forgotten about blogging! I am back on it - Purely because i have half written blog posts that definately need posting for the world to see.
Ive decided to have a sorry not sorry approach to what i write in my blogs, if that makes any sense at all. Really, i mean i have given up on caring about what other people think about what i write. The whole reason i started this blog in the first place was so i could put across my opinions and views on things.
Its not going to be to everyones liking but i am hoping that this year will be good for me, that i get a bit of luck and that im not just writing to no one ! haha
So watch this space, because there will be regular blog posts from now on, and they will be varied.
Hope you all enjoy
Until next time...
Anyone can feel free to add/follow me on any of the below:
Twitter: Samgove_x
Instagram: samgove
Email: samgove_x@icloud.com
April 2014! Its sorta been a busy year already but this is a quick post to say i havent forgotten about blogging! I am back on it - Purely because i have half written blog posts that definately need posting for the world to see.
Ive decided to have a sorry not sorry approach to what i write in my blogs, if that makes any sense at all. Really, i mean i have given up on caring about what other people think about what i write. The whole reason i started this blog in the first place was so i could put across my opinions and views on things.
Its not going to be to everyones liking but i am hoping that this year will be good for me, that i get a bit of luck and that im not just writing to no one ! haha
So watch this space, because there will be regular blog posts from now on, and they will be varied.
Hope you all enjoy
Until next time...
Anyone can feel free to add/follow me on any of the below:
Twitter: Samgove_x
Instagram: samgove
Email: samgove_x@icloud.com
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Thursday, 9 January 2014
Phobias!
Hello there
Second week of blogging in 2014 and im already slacking! haha. Liam has been back at playgroup this week and so ive had a few hours to myself (sorta).
I've been very good and sticking to my new years resolution, and this week i headed back to the dreaded dentist ... I have been taking it slow to try and get over this ever so silly phobia of mine. Next time liam will be having a checkup so i shall put on a brave face for him!
When your young you dont really think about being scared of things such as the dentist if you go every 6 months, or spiders etc. There are so many people in this world with extraordinary phobias and others which are really common. I was told i was being silly because i cried every time i walked into the dentist room for no reason whatsover, and to be honest it made me feel even worse. My phobia wasnt me being silly it was geniune.
When you have a child you dont just have to face your fears for yourself but you have a million more worries and fears for your child, and it has now got to a point where i think - i dont want liam to be like me and i don't want him to be scared of anything. So i put on my brave mummy face and show him there is nothing to be scared of.
I am not saying that you have to have a child to put on a brave face, just something will automatically click in your brain and say IM READY, I CAN DO THIS. For me - that was having liam. It could be wanting to start a new job or just trying to be more confident, and doing it for yourself.
You see all these people on tv or in the news who are afraid of things you would never think of, like ketchup or spoons and it is so easy to start laughing at them and think "ahh thats a silly phobia!" No phobia is too silly or stupid and never let anyone put you down about a phobia you may have.
Make sure you are ready and just be proud of yourself for facing your fear in the first place....
Even if its just like me and the dentist, 2 Years ago i wouldn't even set foot in a dentist, 3 weeks ago i walked in crying and 2 Days ago i actually sat in the dentist chair and had them blow air and water onto my gums. As long as everything goes at YOUR pace YOU are in control.
What is your biggest phobia?? Or one you are facing right now?
Until next time.....
Find me here..:
Instagram: samgove
Twitter: samgove_x
Email: samantha.angove@gmail.com
Snapchat: samgove-x
Super Love!
Second week of blogging in 2014 and im already slacking! haha. Liam has been back at playgroup this week and so ive had a few hours to myself (sorta).
I've been very good and sticking to my new years resolution, and this week i headed back to the dreaded dentist ... I have been taking it slow to try and get over this ever so silly phobia of mine. Next time liam will be having a checkup so i shall put on a brave face for him!
When your young you dont really think about being scared of things such as the dentist if you go every 6 months, or spiders etc. There are so many people in this world with extraordinary phobias and others which are really common. I was told i was being silly because i cried every time i walked into the dentist room for no reason whatsover, and to be honest it made me feel even worse. My phobia wasnt me being silly it was geniune.
When you have a child you dont just have to face your fears for yourself but you have a million more worries and fears for your child, and it has now got to a point where i think - i dont want liam to be like me and i don't want him to be scared of anything. So i put on my brave mummy face and show him there is nothing to be scared of.
I am not saying that you have to have a child to put on a brave face, just something will automatically click in your brain and say IM READY, I CAN DO THIS. For me - that was having liam. It could be wanting to start a new job or just trying to be more confident, and doing it for yourself.
You see all these people on tv or in the news who are afraid of things you would never think of, like ketchup or spoons and it is so easy to start laughing at them and think "ahh thats a silly phobia!" No phobia is too silly or stupid and never let anyone put you down about a phobia you may have.
Make sure you are ready and just be proud of yourself for facing your fear in the first place....
Even if its just like me and the dentist, 2 Years ago i wouldn't even set foot in a dentist, 3 weeks ago i walked in crying and 2 Days ago i actually sat in the dentist chair and had them blow air and water onto my gums. As long as everything goes at YOUR pace YOU are in control.
What is your biggest phobia?? Or one you are facing right now?
Until next time.....
Find me here..:
Instagram: samgove
Twitter: samgove_x
Email: samantha.angove@gmail.com
Snapchat: samgove-x
Super Love!
Thursday, 2 January 2014
New Year!!
Hello there,
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!
Can you believe we are already in 2014. So much has happened in the last few years its flown by - Lets hope this year brings everyone lots of luck and happiness, because i sure need it! Haha.
This year i have made a promise to myself that i will not give up on anything. I have a bad habit of starting things and never finishing them, or saying something and never doing it. So this leads me to my new years resolution of STICKING TO IT!
Starting with my blog, i love writing down thoughts - what i like and dislike so why shouldnt i share it with the world :). This blog will be mainly to do with beauty and lifestyle, with me throwing some parenting posts, reviews and a few fashion ones if i can.
First thing is to think of a suitable name...may take a while. All help appreciated! :)
What's your new years resolution?? Do you ever stick to your word??
Until next time...
Find me here..:
Instagram: samgove
Twitter: samgove_x
Email: samantha.angove@gmail.com
Snapchat: samgove-x
Super Love!
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!
Can you believe we are already in 2014. So much has happened in the last few years its flown by - Lets hope this year brings everyone lots of luck and happiness, because i sure need it! Haha.
This year i have made a promise to myself that i will not give up on anything. I have a bad habit of starting things and never finishing them, or saying something and never doing it. So this leads me to my new years resolution of STICKING TO IT!
Starting with my blog, i love writing down thoughts - what i like and dislike so why shouldnt i share it with the world :). This blog will be mainly to do with beauty and lifestyle, with me throwing some parenting posts, reviews and a few fashion ones if i can.
First thing is to think of a suitable name...may take a while. All help appreciated! :)
What's your new years resolution?? Do you ever stick to your word??
Until next time...
Find me here..:
Instagram: samgove
Twitter: samgove_x
Email: samantha.angove@gmail.com
Snapchat: samgove-x
Super Love!
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